Move along. Nothing to see here.
At least there won't be for awhile.
My muse is dead. Digital
killed her.
Don't get me wrong. Digital
photography is a great thing. Instant results.
Pictures at ridiculously high ASA's that look cleaner than
400 speed film did back in the day. Take hundreds of shots
and not worry about running out of film and be able to evaluate them
there and then. It's wonderful, really. But it's
also cold, mechanical, lifeless. The process I mean, not the
photographs. I've seen amazing photographs that were done
digitally. I don't even pretend to say that the final product
is superior or inferior to film. But for all the
technological marvel and instant results, it just leaves me
cold.
Film photography to me has always been
like alchemy. Those of us who practiced the art were like
alchemists. We had to capture the shot with limited
opportunity and it had to be right and we had really no way of knowing
if it was except by our past experience with that camera and that film
and that chemistry and that paper. Change one ingredient and
it was a whole other ball game. You went out and took your
shot, then brought the film home. You took it out of its
canister or unrolled it from its paper backing in complete darkness and
put it on a reel that you sealed into a light tight tank, like putting
an offering into a holy grail. Then into this cup you poured
in succession the chemicals, at the right temperatures and for the
right times, hoping to have the film transformed into images, and if
you screwed it up, they were gone. It was organic, alive.
Even if you sent the stuff out to be developed, if you cared
about your pictures you made sure to send it to a lab that
knew what it was doing, and even then you prayed they'd get it right.
Photography now is like the society it
takes place in. Computerized and efficient. People
don't talk to each other anymore. They text and message.
Sure, sites like myspace and facebook and websites like this
very one make it easy to share the photographs now with many more
people, but often this is done to the response of a numbered rating.
You used to have to show people the pictures and take the
criticisms or the praise in person. And the picture you
showed them was the picture, with no apologies to be made about having
to downsize for the web or how different sites and browsers rendered
the detail or the color.
Now I realize some coming across this will be
calling bullshit, but that's how I feel about it, at least right now.
I'll just have to wait and see if anything can rekindle what was
lit over thirty years ago.